Static

Have you ever felt like you're standing in a corner, looking on, while the world whirls on around you? I feel a little bit like that now--I'm static, very much an observer, watching as everyone else's lives change, move forward, on to the next level.

The Bart, Chaps, Lala are all getting married, Jags is legally married already, Oiram is the same, Gio is going to be a daddy, Emsten's starting a new business and trying to become a mommy, and Juff Juff's gotten serious about his relationship. And as I become aware of each development in my friends' lives, I become more and more of an onlooker--a happy one, but an onlooker all the same. Yes, there are changes in my life too (soon, hopefully), but those are more beginning of life changes--new job, moving to new place etc. The others' changes are more, I don't know, "grown-up." Growing up. They're all growing up, and becoming big people, people with families and responsibilities. And I'm still, in some ways, not much different from the 10-, 12-, 17- 23-year-old I was when I met some of them.

It's a strange feeling. Not necessarily a bad one. It's actually fun to see the world, and the lives of people I care about, changing, moving on to the next phase. But it's a strange feeling, nonetheless.