I have been on a health kick for the past couple of months -- going running almost every morning, taking care to eat (relatively) healthy food (the last time I so much as looked at a pizza was about six weeks ago) and in smallish amounts. These phases descend on me from time to time. Unfortunately, they don't last very long, so I try to make the best of them when I am still caught up in them.
The weird thing, though, is that I find myself in a constant state of annoyance and irritability during these times. Which I find perplexing. Because, isn't exercise supposed to make you feel BETTER? Aren't those endorphin thingies that the brain releases during and after exercise supposed to increase your sense of wellbeing? In my case, it seems like the opposite happens.
Take last night, for instance. I went to bed in a slightly better mood than I've been for the past few days. But as I tossed and turned, I managed to have a mini-inner tantrum, thinking about various things, situations that bug me but are not entirely tragic or life-altering. I got so worked up that I even composed a blog entry, mostly about my work situation, which has served to enhance my prolonged crabbiness (who knows, I might even end up posting it the next time my annoyance level rises -- yikes!) The result -- I couldn't fall asleep, which made me wake up in an even worse mood today, get annoyed at the smallest things at work, and feel even worse.
Sigh! It's a vicious circle! Maybe I should go back to sleeping in and eating junk food. After all, aren't chubby people supposed to be jolly?
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Sometimes our bodies actually go through a time of irritability when we change our diet and exercise program for the better. It's just the in-between time of sloughing off the bad stuff. I also imagine that sleep deprivation is countering your endorphin thingies. :) Your life is so different now, so many things to adjust to, I wouldn't be in the least surprised at a bit of crabbiness!
Go for the XL pizza with extra cheese is what I say. Exercise is for freaks anyway (plus lifting those heavy pizza slices must burn those calories, eh?). But seriously, I think people should do what makes them feel happy. There isn't a standard recipe for happiness and wellbeing for everyone, so if excercise just doesn't do it for you then don't force it.
Yes. Chubby people are supposed to be jolly, but they are also supposed to wear red suits and deliver presents to every child on the planet in one day.
I love Japan, and wish I could live there, but don't expect to find relief from the culture around you. The Japanese do not have a reputation for being happy people.
Remember that you are cherished, Ini. May the Lord fill your cup with joy 'till it's overflowing.
I'm a lousy sleeper too. Sometimes the best thing to do when you can't relax enough to doze off is just get up and read or watch television for a little while and then try again. The annoyance and irritability factor will keep you up too. You're probably just feeling the cumulative weight of a lot of small things that don't mean a lot when taken individually. If it gets too bad take a couple of diphenhydramine tablets. 25 to 50 mgs is what they put in stuff like Tylenol PM. It will make you drowsy enough to sleep well.
whatevs. keep eating well. keep running. who cares if you're unhappy. :) :) :) CHEER UP. I'LL FIND YOU YOUR ENDORPHINS. They might be in the mail that's arrived for you (mostly junk) (will send you update soon) (nothing urgent) (or so I think) (hmmmm).
Cav'
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