Sunday, October 29, 2006

On mistakes and realizations. . .

I've spent the weekend catching up on reading about someone else's mistakes, which, incidentally, were being made at the same time I was busy making my own--methinks I could have gained some perspective, had I discovered this wealth of wisdom some time ago. But oh well. I guess each person has to make his/her own mistakes. No amount of someone else's experiences, no matter how "relatable-to" can really help. But this binge reading, among other things, has me somewhat depressed.

And on a wholly unrelated note. . . I'm wondering if I have an inflated view of myself, i.e. think that I am better, and deserve better, than I am actually am/do. And, hand in hand with that, if I am entirely too judgemental, and too shallowly judgemental at that, when it comes to other people's failings. Both are quite possible, I'm afraid. And, I have also discovered, to quote a line from Grey's Anatomy: "There is a land called passive-aggressiva, and I am their queen."

Sigh. I wonder what other unpleasant realizations await me this week.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

But of course you deserve the very best! So don't worry about having too high standards or expectations.

As for reading about the mistakes of others - always useful, but sometimes, like you said, you have to go out there and commit some errors, so you can learn.

L.L. Barkat said...

Sounds like growing pains, which I can relate to... Just when I think I'm done with them, I go through them again in new ways. Anyhow, in the meantime, you are a great person, with special gifts to share.

A verse for you, now, because it came to my mind...

"But you, O LORD, are a shield around me, my glory, and the one who lifts up my head." (Psalm 2:3)