Overwhelmed :(

With everything that's been happening over the past few days, I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed.

For one, I didn't get a fall internship I applied for. Which is fine, because I didn't really want it in the first place. But now, I'm panicing about the other job I've applied for, which I really want, and which I was counting on when I signed a one-year lease for my apartment. And just about the general fact that I don't have a job when I finish my internship in a month, and what I will do about my apartment if I don't find something in the New York area (I know, it was a stroke of genius to move without a job lined up).

The move itself has been really draining, and this weekend, I went back to my storage unit to pick up the rest of my things. Now I have six huge boxes sitting in my living room that I have neither the energy or the inclination to unpack, mostly because I don't know what to do with the stuff in it. So I just sit there, staring at them, trying to figure out how I managed to accumulate so much in less than a year.

My finances are a complete mess, mostly because of the huge fiasco of a move that ended up costing me a lot more than I'd anticipated. And in typical Ini fashion, I haven't managed to get up the nerve to deal with it.

I picked up Wednesday yesterday and brought him home, but he's in a bit of a mess, because he did the big job on the way to my place in his pet carrier, and I need to clean him up. But for one he won't stay put long enough for me to do so, and two, I'm not really sure how to go about doing it. And I'm worried that he hasn't yet discovered his litter box, and that I'll go back home to discover. . . I won't spell it out (how WILL I deal with having kids?!?!?!)

I have a host of DIY projects piling up that I haven't dared to attempt, so I have bits and pieces of furniture in various stages of impending collapse sitting around my apartment.

And for some reason, my new address seems non-existent, and I haven't gotten any mail (except for good ol' Netflix) since I moved, despite the fact that I've changed my address both with all the credit card etc. companies and the post office. So, I'm worried that I have bad credit piling up somewhere that I'm blissfully unaware of.

And, in general, New Jersey seems a world away from my few friends, and it's lonely out there:( And, without internet access at home, I feel even more cut off from the world.

These are all silly, shallow concerns, especially in light of what's happening in the world right now. But please forgive my self-absorbedness, at least this once. Next time, you can tell me to suck it up and deal with it.