Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Farewell:-(

I hate goodbyes. Well, I guess there aren't many people who actually enjoy them. But, Emsten left today, to go back home to her sunny little island, and the apartment really feels empty. Today of all days, I had class all day, so I woke up early and made my specialty, aubergine (eggplant, brinjal, whatever!) curry, and had a last croissant and coffee with Emsten before rushing off to class.

Rushed back from class for lunch with Emsten, and Okia, who joined us, and little Wednesday, who, as usual, kept trying to eat us AND our food. I got Emsten her last black bubble tea from Cafe Swish where I took her about five or six times in her four weeks here, and we chatted about Emsten's little twin sisters, and this, that and the other. Rushed back to class after lunch, and rushed back home, with a few minutes to spare before the car came to pick her up and take her to the airport.

We chatted for a bit as Emsten, incredibly organised, had already finished packing (Me, I would have been stuffing things into my suitcase until the last minute, but she had everything perfectly folded and packed, and even a little rectangular space just the right size for her toiletries kit, which went in last). So we checked around for the last time, chatted a bit and took her stuff down. When the car came, we said goodbye, with promises to meet up again on her sunny island, and heartfelt wishes for her upcoming wedding(!!!) and she left. It seemed almost anti-climactic. Such a quick goodbye, to such a good friend.

When I came back to the apartment, it felt so empty. I'd gotten so used to it being the four of us in our apartment, and now it feels strange to have my room to myself again. We hardly even saw each other during the week, but just knowing that she was around, and a quick hi and bye as we dashed in and out of the apartment, still made it nice, more homey somehow. I wished I could have done more, hung out with her more, that we'd had more little chats, but both of us were busy and life has a habit of just taking over sometimes, and you end up doing what you have to do at that moment, not what's important in the larger scheme of things.

When I saw Okia later, she commented too that it felt strange not to have Emsten around. "I already miss her," she said. "Me too," I replied:-(

And Emsten gave me an early birthday gift that left me speechless - a nano!! I had been going on about how it would be so nice to have one for when I'm in the gym and just to listen to - but really, do you need an excuse to have an nano? - and the other day, we were downloading our favourite songs onto my comptuer and listening to them, and reminiscing. . . and the next thing I know, the woman goes and gets me a nano!!

But that's Emsten! Emsten, if you read this, I hope you had a safe flight, and are back safe and happy, and are blissfully planning your wedding. And tell your parents girl!

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh Nix - I know what you mean - but despite all the years of having to do it, you never get used to the goodbyes, do you? And you know what? No matter how much time you spend with people you love - it'll never seem enough... And that's really special - to feel like you can always say more, do more, or not say and do anything but just be, with some people...

So enjoy the nano and the memories and the pictures you have on your new shiny digicam... i miss you.

Inihtar said...

You've finally resurfaced!!! Good to hear from you again!! I know, it's true. I guess I should just be happy for second. . . and third. . . and fourth chances. . ., and keep hoping that there will be more, and cherish the times I do get to see you guys in case there aren't!

But is it me, or does it seem like Kodai people seem to have more than our share of goodbyes?

Anonymous said...

no its true - but i think thats also 'cos we're part of a distinct generation of 'weirdos' who have the privilege to call more than one place 'home'. be grateful for all that we do have etc... i know it doesn't make it easier, but with it comes the joy of having friends who are family all over...

p.s. can you tell that i'm trying to be optimistic?

Ficali McDelta (nee McPipe) said...

Hey guys, just start emailing eachother :)
Nix that was a really nice post. I know just what you mean - about time Emsten should move here! :(
And Emsten - tell your parents girl!
~FMP